My 25th Birthday

This birthday has been very bittersweet for me. Robert and I found out that we were going to have another baby early this month. I experienced such happiness but it was very short lived. At 6 weeks into the pregnancy our little bean would no longer be coming into this world. I was heartbroken & am still grieving. I am glad God ended it naturally so that we wouldn't continue to make a baby that would of had ailments or other problems. There is a reason for everything. I am doing everything I can to live a healthier lifestyle so when baby #2 does finally come along my body will be strong.

Because of all of the turmoil around my birthday Robert wanted to make the day extra special. He truly has been my rock along with another friend through all of this. He has been supporting me & being extra nice & helpful these last few days.... Last night I got dressed up & before we went out he brought me 2 dozen long stemmed pink roses, they are beautiful! He also got me the Vera Wang Princess fragrance gift set that comes with a purple clutch purse, the large bottle of perfume, the small roll on bottle & the matching body lotion. We then went to my favorite elegant restaurant downtown called "The Keg" and we both got a bottle of wine and had the prime rib which was TO DIE FOR. He told them it was my birthday so they brought out a piece of cake with a candle and him and the waitress sang Happy Birthday to me =) We went to Fort Fright next... I use to love Horror/ scary things, but now they really freak me out! There were clowns chasing and scary me and I nearly peed my pants!

This morning for my birthday breakfast we got McDonald's egg mcmuffins, for lunch we got M & M's french soups w/ grilled cheese on french bread, and for dinner we are going to Rob's parents for my birthday dinner. I would say I had a very fulfilling birthday & I have been truly reminded this birthday how much I am loved. I am very lucky.

To my unborn child.... Even though you weren't anywhere near developed there still will always be a place in my heart for who you could of been. I will always remember October 19, 2010. One of the most saddest days of my life, but also one that made me really appreciate the gift of life. After what happened you made me realize all I have.... You gave me the gift of "realization" that Stella is such a precious gift. I gave her an extra long hug on that day..... and have been giving her extra long hugs since. Your soul will be born into our next child someday soon. =)

Whats new this fall

Just found out a few days ago that good friends of mine are having a baby! This is very exciting! I am so happy for them & thrilled that Stella will have a new playmate, possibly lover depending on the sex. =) I really hope to get pregnant again within the next year or so! I have been wanting another one lately.

On to other exciting news, I have decided to persue my idea of publishing children's books. I have written my first draft and I have a friend who is a really talented illistrator so we are going to collaborate on this first book & get it published. If it does well we might take this on and write more! I will keep you posted with how it goes.

HAPPY FALL EVERYONE, hope you all are getting your costumes ready!! =)

My Favorite Season..... Fall of 2010!

The crisp damp air, cloudy grey skys with drizzle.... Halloween decorations coming out, cozy sweaters, fall colorful leaves, Starbucks gingerbread lattes & an afternoon spent in Chapters. House music while going for car rides while the rain hits the windshield outside in the cold breeze. My birthday... Halloween parties & all the fun that surrounds that holiday, it releases your inner-child.... There is nothing like this time of year!

Rob & I have an annual Halloween party at our house since it is a time of year I really enjoy. We are going to start having a theme each year & this year will be the "dark-side". I have always wanted to be a witch for Halloween & never have been one so this is the perfect opportunity to be just that! I picked out the cutest Halloween costume for Stella (it's a surprise so it won't be revealed until closer to the time!) Rob's costume is quite clever also.

The Winter 12 week term for Boogie Bunnies starts up Nov. 5th/6th so people are starting to enroll now. It is turning out to be a very successful business & I am very pleased with all my hard work & enterpenurial (sp?) skills :) I just hired an assistant to help with the classes to make them run more smoothly. In the Winter term we will be having a couple mommy & me classes, one is for 3months-12 months of age & the other is for 1-3 year olds that aren't quite ready to be in an independent class yet. Then of course the usual 2-4 year old unassisted classes.

I am thrilled for my birthday coming up Oct. 22nd. Robert is planning something special but I told him I would like dinner @ The Keg ( my fav restaurant) , a luxury suite at a hotel that night with one or more things from my bday/xmas wish list:
wishlistr.com/rss/kristinrose LOL.... Let's see what he ends up doing.... I will keep you updated.

Being a stay at home mom is very rewarding but also a lot of work! I crave "me time." Stella goes to daycare on Mondays from 9-3 this gives me time to myself. But it goes by so fast & there is always lots to do that I don't really have time to relax. I wish I had her in 2 days of care, one day to do stuff & the next day to rest. LOL...... ANYWAYS, I LOVE STELLA BELLA. SHE IS THE LIGHT OF MY LIFE. Rob works a lot. I feel like I never see him & when he does finally have time away from work he is still in "work mode"..... we need to take a vacation! We are looking to possibly go to the keys in February... I wish it was February tomorrow =)

Boogie Bunnies

I am very excited to start up my creative movement classes for toddlers. I assisted with creative movement in Houston & had a lot of fun. I am going to teach basic ballet, jazz & modern dance moves to 2-5 year olds. We will have a new theme every week & have different music & activities to learn & have fun with. The kids will look so cute in their dance attire consisting of tights, leotards, dance slippers & tutus (which are optional).

All the parents are so excited to see how cute they look all dressed up & learning new moves. This promotes socialization skills, following direction, building self esteem/confidence & gaining some independence. All children love to sing & dance so this helps their creativity shine through! The fist class is on Saturday the 17th! I am so pumped to see how it goes!

Being a stay at home mommy!

I know it has been way to long since I last wrote. It has been so very busy around here lately. My mom just left, she was here for a few days and I know that her and Stella enjoyed their time together. We visited Newaygo (our family cottage & lake), it was a lot of fun, Hunter got to roam around the woods and Stella also got to spend time with her great grandma & great aunt & great great aunt.

I can't get over how fast Stella is growing. She will be 6 months on Monday. She is the size of a 1 yr old! She can roll over both ways and kind of scoot around. One thing I notice about her (which apparently was the same for me all my childhood) is that she ALWAYS needs a circus! She gets bored very easily with things and wants to move on to the next thing or be picked up and changed positions. She makes this ugggggh Noise over and over again when she is done with the scenery or the current activity lol. It is hilarious but at the same time kinda annoying. She takes after her daddy, I think she might have ADHD as well. =)

After much discussion about whether I should go back to work part time or not we have decided that I need to be a stay at home mommy. I have always toyed with the concept but never fully embraced it as my job description until this week! I am so excited about being there for every milestone, knowing that I am providing the best care possible for our daughter, and calling myself a true "homemaker".

I am saving us so much money but not having to pay for childcare or a cleaner. My days consist of caring for Stella & our doggie Hunter. I cook, clean, do laundry, exercise, go for walks with Stella strapped to me, do our grocery and other shopping, do gardening, Stella & I signed up for mommy & me swimming lessons that start in July & also there is a playgroup that meets once a week that we are going to start going to. Part of my job description is to also manage our finances & pay the bills, bargain shop, cut out coupons and fun stuff like that. I also watch one of my old daycare kids 3 nights per month when her mom works the night shift. I get some play money from Rob each week that I can spend how I want, and I use our debit card for things we "need". It is a great arrangement. I am so happy with our life and I feel truly blessed that we are able to live how we want and that I am able to care for our child exclusively.

I have also gone on a health eating kick & exercise religiously. I feel so energized and happier, more full of life. It is also a lot cheaper to eat healthy with groceries than to eat poorly with drive ins and take out! I will be tracking my progress on here as we go, so far I have lost 12 lbs in 4 weeks!

Stella's Baptism

This Easter Stella was baptised with her cousin Quinn. The weekend was beautiful and the girls were little angels, it went very well. Stella had her hands clasped together the whole time like she was saying her prayers. =)
I am very lucky to have such a good little girl, I love her very much. I am going to start taking her to church one Sunday a month. I would like to get her involved in the Catholic church and am anxious to find one I like in the Kingston area.

Mommy's first scare!

Stella started out with what seemed to just be the common cold. A couple days later I noticed she was severely congested and sounded horrible! When she would cough she would sometimes choke on the phlegm and turn bright red and be gagging so much she would stop breathing for a few seconds! I was in such a panick! She also would start wheezing so badly that you could hear her from another room away!

It seemed to me like she was perhaps having asthma attacks. I took her into Kingston General Hospital a few evenings back and she was admitted right away with the triage nurse saying "infant under resperatory distress here!", that made me so terrified to hear that!

They hooked her up to a nebulizer with asthma medication in it, and it seemed to help a lot so they sent us home... saying it was probably just a cold that got in her chest and it will go away in a few days...

Something just didn't sit right with me on calling it just a COLD! The symptoms started to come back and so did the wheezing, I took her back in the next morning and asked for them to please look into it further, of course the wheezing stopped by the time I brought her in so they said again "JUST A COLD!"

When I brought her home it got worse and I decided to take her into our other hospital in Kingston called "Hotel Dieu" it has an emerg outpatient department just for pediatrics (this is the place I should of taken her all along, but I totally forgot about it.) The doc came in right away and knew what it was just by listening to her! She said its RSV, which is a resperatory virus.... It can be quite dangerious for infants so they sent us home with an inhaler with a mask attached to it to give to infants and I am to give it to her every 4 hours or so throughout her cold.....

IT IS GETTING MUCH BETTER, WE DON'T HEAR HER WHEEZE AT ALL ANYMORE. I asked if this could be asthma and she said yes, it could be however they do not diagnose asthma to infants or kids under 5 just because it could be so many other things, so if she has this same cough and wheezing problem with every cold or allergy she has until she is about 4 or 5 then it probably is asthma, so we will have to wait and see.